kettle.

she has french tip toes
and a bottle of gin
tonight whose heart
is she going to win?
her face may be covered
in bits of plaster
but she gets those teen hearts
beating faster, faster.
low cut shirt and an
aim to please
she will drop you to
your knees.
with a bottle of gin
and a heart of gold
who is the home wrecker
bringing home?

pour yourself a drink.

10 Real Random Facts About You

1. I don't know how to blow a bubble with my gum
2. My Miracle Jesus doll has glow in the dark hands.
3. My favorite TV show is FRIENDS. I own all of the seasons and know every word.
4. I'm an underground artist. You probably won't ever see anything I've drawn or painted, unless it's on a shirt.
5. I collect buttons and patches.
7. I want to be a photographer
8. I've never met some of my best friends.
9. I know more unsigned or small label bands than you do.
10. I sing all the time, 24/7. Even if its just in my head.

9 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART

1. HUMORHUMORHUMOR
2. Honesty. Always always be honest. Brutality.
3. Hugs from the back.
4. Give me red bull lol.
5. Appreciate the boardies |=
6. Dance. Dance like there's no tomorrow.
7. NEVEREVERREGRET
8. Remind me how pretty I am.
9. LOVEMEFORBEINGWEIRD

8 THINGS I CARRY/WEAR EVERYDAY

1. Cellphone
2. iPod
3. Camera
4. Smile
5.
6.
7.
8.

7 THINGS THAT ANNOY ME

1. Ignorance
2. Hypocracy
3. Homophobes
4. Liars
5. People who fit in
6. MOTHER FUCKING SCENE KIDS
7. Poser scene kids

6 PLACES I'VE VISITED

1. Mustique [it's a private island in the carribean]
2. New York City
3. Kiawah Island
4. Hollywood
5. Beach Haven
6. The D'aMico's

5 THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE

1. Travel the world
2. Tour with Amprage
3. Live in Chicago
4. Punch someone so their nose breaks
5. Get a nice camera

4 THINGS I'M AFRAID OF

1. Silence
2. Forgetting to live
3. Going deaf
4.

3 THINGS I DO EVERYDAY

1. Sing
2. Breathe
3. Dance

2 THINGS I'M TRYING NOT TO DO NOW

1. Sleep
2. Scream

1 PERSON I WANT TO SEE NOW

1. Stella. I miss her.

RELAY FOR LIFE, 2007

Hey d00ds and d00dettes. I'm about to have the best summer ever.
21st July: Harry Potter & The Deathly Hollows
23rd July: American Idol Season Six
2nd August: Mallory comes to California
7th August: Beach Haven, New Jersey with Heather
15th August: My Birthday
18th August: My Sweet Sixteen
25th August: Warped Tour
20th September: Sleeping With Giants tour
2nd October: Washington DC Youth Leadership Conference
13th October: Relay For Life.

So the last one isn't in the summer. But it's still going to be the best thing. My best friend and personal savior HUNTER BUCHANAN is starting his own team! For6 years, I have run for Rhonda's Renegades, the team my mum started in 2000 for her best friend Rhonda who had recently come down with cancer. Well, this year she has relapsed. The team may not be this year. Which is incredibly unfortunate, I pray the best for Rhonda. She is undergoing Chemo some time in September.
Every year, for six years, Hunter and I have run together in the Relay, which raises money and awareness for Cancer. It brings hope. It proves that cancer never sleeps, so we stay up for 24 hours, and pretty much have the best time. This year, Hunter has started his own team, which all of our friends will be joining. He gave me the privelage of naming this team, and I have chosen SMELLS LIKE TEEN SPIRIT. Quite a pun, eh? This is going to be one of the best years.
As well as raising $100 for the American Cancer Society, I will also be donating my hair to Locks Of Love! This organization makes wigs for underprivelaged kids suffering from cancer and have lost their own hair due to intensive chemo therapy. I'm really excited for this. All though most of you don't approve of my choice to chop my hair off to my chin, I ask you why. Why wouldn't you want me to donate my time, money, and the only other thing I can give, my hair, to a worthwhile cause? Julianne and I are both going to be cutting our hair. Although I will not have 10 inches to cut off, I will be donating 8, which I can still donate to help offset the manufacturing costs of the wigs.
I'm very very excited.
Expect a stunning-new Janaye mid-October.

Ciao,
-JBG.

You've Been Dreaming Again

Nothing like a little self deception to get you through the night.


I had a dream about you.
In my mind, it wasn't weird.
But the rest of you will probably get a kick out of it...

It started off that my neighbor and her two cousins and i went into the tunnels by the creek. Katie and I were the children of Voldemort. [Cute, right?] We went into the tunnels because we knew something was going wrong. We found a man and a girl, and the girl was beaten up all over. Pieces of her skull were missing and were pattered every where. She was alive though, and the man was making her go underwater to get something.
Then he saw us. And knew who we were.
And tried to run.
But then our big bad daddy, Voldy, came into play.
It all really happened in a flash, but then we were caught.
There were 8 of us. And they stuck us in cages.
Cause we were dangerous, see.
Raza could turn into a monkey, i remember that much.
Donno why you were dangerous, but you were.
And we were in the same cage.
And you always held and protected me and calmed me when i was ready to snap.
And then we got out.
We got out a lot, just so we could be outside, but we always came back before they knew.
But we all got out.
And we went to the mall.
And you know? Some feelings came back.
I can't describe it.
No wait, i can. But i won't. cause it all sounds so silly.
You were never here with me and you never did those things.
It's just a dream... Right?

Sick Sick Sick

Young, dumb, don't see a problem
Bloodshot, stare like a hoodlum
Simple as this; I'm in love with the risk
I know what I've done,
But tell me what did I miss?
So please don't save something
Waste not, save nothing
Lose the halo, don't need to resist
A lick of the lips and a grip on your hips

Sick, sick, sick
Don't resist
Sick, sick, sick
Don't resist

First thing we succumb to
Shout, erase, and undo
Days are unreleased, if there's no release
Please just let me do whatever fits you
Make something, make someone
Beg on a knee, baby baby please
Pout your bottom lip
While cracking the whip
You know what we want,
It's candy to cum to

Sick, sick, sick
Don't resist
Sick, sick, sick
Don't resist

A total eclipse in the teeth of the risk
The tongue is a twist, perpetual bliss
Forever midnight
Forever...

Sick, sick, sick
Don't resist
Sick, sick, sick
Don't resist

Sick sick, sick (I'm gonna take)
Don't resist (I don't wanna choose)
Sick, sick, sick (I'm gonna take)
Don't resist (I don't wanna change)

Me VS. Morrissey In The Pretentious Contest

tie me up to the radiator.

good morning blogspot.
well no, its 10PM =|
FINAL AMPRAGE RECORDING.
i'm incredibly stoked.
good to have something to loook up to.
here's my week, in short:

-home from san diego
-asked on a date
-blown off on the 4th of July
-hung out with heather
-blown off by my friends

and now we wait.
for red bull and snap dragons.
uh.... *cough*.

so do i give him another chance or what?
he did get piss drunk and avoid me for a model.
hmm.... idk. i could think about it.

SONGS I'VE DEDICATED TO MYSELF:
-Crazy/Beautiful: Ashley Parker Angel
-XO: Fall Out Boy
-Girl: Beck
-Rain: Superchick
-Makes Me Wonder: Maroon 5
-Animal Bar: Red Hot Chili Peppers
-Drive: Incubus
-Slow Down: The Academy Is...

playlist rly.

San Diegoooooooooo

HAPPY POST :D

best weekend ever lkdfsjsd.
warped on saturday
honda civic tour on sunday.

I MET THE ACADEMY IS...!!!!
only Sisky, Mike, and Beckett were out, so i didnt get to meet Michael Chislette or The Butcher, but holy shit dude :D im in loveeee<3.

the neighbors have complained damn near every night

went to balboa park. [: that was cool. i love lime-basil, did you know that? dyed my hair, didn't show up so well. redying it next week at heathers. chya!
got kicked out of the pool becasue the fucking DUCK was making noises.
=| fuck you too, sofan.

looong car ride home. ridiculous. but i had so much fun [:

thinking of you thinking of her and me
thinking of him.
yeah. i kinda like the kid.
hopefully no one gets beat up this time.

be my unholy my one and my lonely.

well since we're moving on
[because thats obviously what me being on vacation in san diego for 4 days means]
then i guess i'll be happy
tell you about my trip
and my new "dgaf" ability.
so. since i totally "gave up" on that "raw" emotion, and the new girl is 300% dedicated to the fuckup, i'll share about noah.

hes a nice kid.
hes my best friend.
haha we were sparring while i was in a neck brace.
i'd call that a fuckin cool friendship.
"be my best friend. that's not a question."
warped tour/injury buddy. [:

then there was Sofan.
the duck.
yes... the DUCK.
he got us kicked out of the pool D:
all good though.

dyed my hair.
redying it this week with heather.
because if we're all really moving on, then i gotta do what i do best
change.
it happens everytime after a time. happened with nick, with oren, with steven.
didn't happen with coty because that boy was unconditional to me.
but i went shopping, changed my attitude, had a weekend away with the girls
and now im ready to do a 180.
good luck recognizing me on the streets, if you ever happen to drive down my darkened road again. don't imagine why you would unless you were looking for a little lost puppy, but hey.

stuttering more now.
yeah. still can't place why.
has something to do with the dyslexia though.

oh. and i may need pills.
because bipolar disorder runs in the family. =|
you think im kidding, don't you?

fucking 95 degrees in this house, and my brother wants to leave the doors closed.
so i flipped a bitch? yes.
but hell, im trying to fucking maintain homeostasis.

best weekend of my life.
too bad im home now.
wanna get out of here already.
can i bunk with you?