Macko's Abortion Debate.

I laughed REALLY hard.







23:12] platypusgestapo: It's ABORTION that is the issue. Not life or choice...
[23:13] platypusgestapo: Then some catholic fucker starts in on me "What you think it's okay to kill a baby?"
[23:13] platypusgestapo: I lied and said no
[23:13] platypusgestapo: =P
[23:13] At the animalbar: hahahahhahahaha
[23:13] platypusgestapo: I DO however think it's okay for a WOMAN to choose whether or not she wants to endure 9 months of horrendous agony for something she doesn't WANT so she can choose whether or not to remove the fetus
[23:14] platypusgestapo: I asked him WHY he thought it was immoral he just said Im not okay with killing a baby.
Me-Well it's not actually a baby, give me another reason.
[23:15] platypusgestapo: My religion is opposed
Me-Seperation of church and state, your religion shouldn't decide on a law. Another reason
[23:15] platypusgestapo: I just am.
[23:15] platypusgestapo: Okay. So you're saying that you should have the right to decide whether or not a woman should be allowed to get an abortion or not?
[23:15] platypusgestapo: Yes.
[23:16] platypusgestapo: CONGRATULATIONS! You just sent the country back 100 years by saying you, as a male, should have power over what a woman can and cannot do with her body. You must be proud,
[23:16] At the animalbar: AHAHAHAHA. Did you REALLY?! lollll
[23:16] At the animalbar: that is a beautiful arguement.
[23:17] platypusgestapo: I did
[23:17] platypusgestapo: THAT is how I got every girl in the room to simultaneously hate him

Katy Perry

Q: What do you look for in a guy?
A: I kind of like it when the guy has the upper hand, because it's sexy, and I have so many upper hands in my life. If you're a strong female, it can get old. You get to a point where you're like, "I don't want to wear the pants, I just want to wear a really nice dress."



Ain't it the truth, ladies.

Rant.

Not really a rant, but more of a release.
Copy/paste from a message to my friend:
"I broke up with Travis two ish weeks ago because it just wasn't right. Youc an like somebody, but that doesn't mean they are right for you. I was constantly trying to adjust his attitude and was worried he would fall back into smoking and drinking.
Last night, travis thought it would be okay if he went to Jimmys house to hang out with all of us after he'd been drinking. Jimmy told him not to bother showing up if he'd had anything and he wasn't cool with that. But that basically affirmed my decision. Like, I've been having doubts, but this just proved it for me. 2 weeks later and he's already pulling dick moves and drinking. It hurts me a lot that he didn't change legitimately during our relationship, but in a way Ive found some peace because my fears were confirmed, and now I can move on."

This is the kind of stuff I was worried about throughout our relationship. And part of the reason we broke up was because I didn't have a handle on that constant worry. Now that my fears are actualized, it's actually a good thing. I'm more confident of my choice to break up with him. And now I can heal.

Growing,
-Janaye

The weight is over.

I have a couple 500 pound gorillas sitting on my chest right now. There are some situations that have made me feel increasing hate, incredible sickness, and overall worry and regret. I am living in the positive, and I just accomplished one thing that the moment I hit "send" made me feel like a better person. I can breathe easier.
Athena Cameransi and I have never liked each other. More of, I've never liked her. I honestly have no idea if she feels hate, pity, or absolutely nothing about me, because I never talk to her. I have spent most of middle school and all of high school disliking her, and for a reason that holds zero bearing on me now. I just sent her a message on myspace and explained why I didn't like her and how sorry I am for being such a negative thing in her life. God, I feel so much better now. I don't know if you can understand or relate at all, but letting go of harmful feelings is the biggest release and relief ever. I'm so glad I finally talked to her about this, and now, we can both move on.
I have a couple more people to talk to. Some I want to talk to this week. Others, that will take some courage to work up to. But it's progress. Hallelujah.

While I'm not completely happy with where I was, or where I am right now, I'm happy that I can recognize this. The first step to fixing a problem is admitting that you have one.

Beach tonight with my friends from TOHS. It's another night of connecting and healing and fixing and living. Looking through my yearbook, realizing there's a week left of high school, I'm remembering all of the good times and realizing how ridiculous most of our drama is. I'm sad to see it end, but it's given me the perspective to make things right, for others and for myself. So I can only be thankful for that.


I still can't get over how light I feel.
XOXO
-Relieve, Relax, and Relive